With the ring on my finger and talk of weddings and setting dates, I wonder: Will it mark the end to my stereotypical twentysomething days and nights?
Will I still have a bare refrigerator and a tolerance for the cheap stuff, not the brand names? Will I still dance in my underwear when my fave song comes on? Will I still drink and dance at the bar wearing cotton shirts, jeans, and a beer in my hand? Will I still need my hair held back from time to time? Will I still want to go see teen movies, and watch MTV? Will I still wear brightly coloured eye makeup? Will I still read Cosmo? Will I still like shots called “porn star”, Jagerbombs and tequila sunrises? Will I still wear pink pajama pants with Old Navy cartoons on them when I’m just running next door? Will I still pay for a bagel with nickels and dimes on the day before payday? Will I still think my tattoo is cool? Will I still call my girlfriends everyday just to chat? Will my girlfriends still call me with boy troubles? Will I make them feel left behind? Will my Dad still give me care packages when I visit? Will my mum still let me do my laundry at her house? Will I become a bridezilla?
I have so many questions, so many more dancing around in my head. Will this engagement and marriage be a separation between my carefree twentysomething days, my friends? My initial reaction is no, and I will do everything I consciously can to hold onto the things I love about being a carefree twentysomething. But there is always the seed of doubt planted in the mind of me and all other Type-A planner personalities. I know I’ll have to do grown up things like finances, visiting Home Depot, mortgages and retirement savings plans. But I don’t foresee myself being truly happy if I can’t go on benders on Saturday nights and do facemasks with my girls at sleepover pool parties. How much does marriage change a person? A lifestyle?

*Despite the anxious undertone to this post, understand these are just some questions. I am overwhelmingly happy and taking two steps forward at a time on this path. I am truly, truly, pumped for “forever” with my fiancé!